I think so ....

Like so the old me come back again . =|

Cheer up and countdown for 1 months .

I don't know what's my feeling now .

I want the old things redo all over again .

I though i should be excited but

I wish i could be the one .

Right now ,

I hate myself .

I hate everything about me .

I hate that I don't feel special .

I hate that I hate myself .

I hate that feel like I have ,

a ball of depression

keep pushing me down on top of my lungs .

Seriously , I don't know what to do .

It makes me feel sick of myself !

maybe this is what should I deserve to have nowadays .

I surfed the net and I saw that the Nz school which i gonna be in is huge

and I found that their pictures are full of white people the days have come nearer and nearer I can't stop thinking negatively !

I need a N97 mini badly .

I think I'm out of the gang am i ?

during these days they were like don't know me at all

only Sze that I know ...

Fine , i forget about it i think i should

maybe they don't need me and I don't need also .

Whatever , maybe I'm out off M'sia .

new life for me in 1 month time

no one appreciate it I can't anything .

you and go higher than now

every steps you climb would probably the one you lose ?

What am I writing ?

WTH !

I'm totally mabukkkkk

my heartbeats is killing me !

the tears went out for no reason !

the mind thinking negative things !

the brain working like a 3 years old child !

I need help !!!!!