She says.

a song that I love recently. Thanks to Kenji that introduce to me. Seriously, I dont actually like this song until i start to read the lyrics and the last few seconds of this music video.

well, life been hard and no one will want their life to be hard as always. It's the last day of 2010 and something serious happened. I scolded my dad and i never thought i was dare to do so. I thought i would have lots of fun on the last day of 2010 but no. I will just stay at home and think through what happened and what's going to happen next. My 2010 was exhausted, fcked up, started to appreciate and also being happy in public. This is my life.

this is mine not yours.

This is powerful, almost too powerful. How many of you feel hurt when you see this? How many of you feel sad for her or for people that will put her down for her body? Has society brainwashed us into making us believe this is “ugly” ? I dont know the answers, but maybe this will make you think twice.

change.

So do people .

I heard he said she changed to worse and that’s not a bad thing but neutral. People do change by the time comes. To be honest, I changed no idea to better or worse. For me life been hard even is here and people just don’t know how to care about friends. Well, I miss both of my best friends more than anything. One moved and the other is drifting away from me. We don't talk and it hurts so much. We used to have the most amazing times together, we used to be like sisters. We used to spend every single day together. ;( I miss you!

apologize.

Due to some problem, will not blog so often but old posts will updated soon. Because I needa type my blog post in MicrosoftWord just can post it here or else the post will be BORING with black and white only. Anyway, went to immigration today for mum’s passport and my mum got like 70% to go back Malaysia late ofcourse I’m not gonna stay here and wait for her. I,Jessie Tan is still gonna go back to MY to enjoy the time that I’ve wasted last time. Although time cant travel back but I’m sure I can appreciate for this time. Ate Giapo the best gelato shop ever! Am full with Korean food and ice-cream. Dinner still on with XiuQi’s family.

Next post will be about my room again, it happened on the next few days of my birthday. Balloons everywhere and also balloons skin are here. Imagine there are thousands of skins in your room and it smelled so freakin’ bad. Gtg now, needa pack and pack and also pack. ;)

Xmas is awesome.

random pic of my spongebob present from Nicole and Fiona. Thanks babe.

It’s Sunday, the super hot and noisy Sunday. Let’s talk about yesterday, was the 11^th Carmen and Karen had their exam today. They both were nervous ASS! After fetching them to college, we went to Brisco to get mattress. Guess what? I got a spongebob mattress with a plain blanket cover. It was CHEAP thanks to xmas. Everywhere is starting to have sales as I’ve mentioned to the last few post. Chocolate are totally the one which is having sales. Then we off to have our breakfast. Korean food for breakfast wasn’t that bad but good ! after that, we went to billabong outlet and also ripcurl’s. Federation is always not on sale. SO SAD. Somehow, mum and I bought some stuff from there also get William huge jacket from RipCurl. After that, back to home and rest for a moment. Out to fetch Carmen home. Stayed at home then out for something seriously I forgot what I’ve done. So let’s talk about Sunday which is today.

Woke up off to Sunday Market, and yes as normal mum woke me out with her loud voice till I cant actually not wake up and accompany her. She wakes Carmen and William too, my mum is just too cute. Lols, we had breakfast with the German sausage with honey mustache best food ever. Seriously, it tastes awesome. Then we went back home and do some housework also pack some stuff since we’re going back on Wednesday. Suddenly, my mum realize that William doesn’t have enough shorts to go back Malaysia so then we off to billabong again. Get him a boardshorts.. Still he needs another pair of shorts so my mum decided to go Dressmart which mean I got chance to get Joe his favorite. Due to Xmas sales, we bought tons of stuff and yes tons. I got a lacoste bag and a Raulph Lauren polo tee(it’smylove).

Never thought Xmas sales will be that awesome, then got back home about 4 or 5. After dinner, we went to supermarket to get chocolate and yes not for myself but the daibs. OMG, I’m crazy about them *iwonderwhy*. Then off back home, enjoy the sweet memories with hong kong drama. ;)

this is my lacoste bag, Carmen bought one so as William.

Buy 2 free one and yes SALES.

William’s, gonna snatch it from him if I need it. haha

my polo. <3

Joe’s , it cost about RM125. SALES!!!

The sun shines.

It’s so sunny, a tee with a shorts will be perfect for today. ;)

Cant believe is Friday already. The 10^th, just realize I haven’t been blogging for 5 days maybe is because of the hong kong dramas and also visitors from Malaysia. Uncle Tom left this morning, more about the family will be up here soon. I haven’t been doing much things but one thing is my room. As you know my room is always complicated.. and now I gonna repare it from the messy photos to a not so messy room. It doesn’t really work tho. I stick the whole thing into the right way more than the left way. What to say, even I write my words are all into the right way more than in the middle. It will never balance whenever, wherever or whatever. ;)

To be honest, a wall with over 100 photos on it looks so crazy. Taking them out is a question, sticking them on with different way will be another questions. Let me show you my room.

After taking them off, need to separate them with places.

Still they are in progressing,

dah screwed up the whole thing tho. D;

Here is a place for visitors to drop by and say hey to my room.;)

This post stops here, see you tomorrow or later. Needa continue with these PHOTOS. ;)

SALE!!

Christmas

People Christmas sales is here which mean CHOCOLATE SALES is here. Almost everyone buy chocolate as a Christmas present. Guess what? I don’t need to buy Christmas presents but get chocolate for myself. Having Christmas here will gain weight. There are chocolate everywhere. Sales here, sales there. I’m poor now. Wth.

Yummy but fats come and say hi.

Yellow bugs.

This post should be posted on the 24^th of November, it was Geography paper in the morning. The paper was like wtf. So I came out early and release the stress of geog and look forward to Chemistry. The second last paper just make me feel like freedom is here. So I stayed at home when Shally and Karen came for Carmen. Since I went back home early, I followed them for brunch then head back home. Sat within them talk and laugh. In a sudden, we heard beeeeep and we were like what’s the yellow thing out the garden. Guess what we see? A swap of bee, what the fuck right? Let’s see the photos below.

Spot the yellow dots? It’s all bee.

Spot the yellow dots? It’s all bee.

*Click to enlarge photo.*

Ignore this random photo. ;)

Spot the yellow dots? It’s all bee.

Then my mum called the neighbor asked about the bee and there are all from another neighbor. He treat bee as pet and he got tons of them. So we called and ask him to come by and catch them. Well, the bee used less than 10 minutes to build their hive. The hive was huge! After like half an hour, neighbor came with a box without wearing anything but just jeans and a polo tee. He go towards them and guess what? Not over 5 minutes he got the hive into the box.

Gosh, look at the box cover. *itchyyyy

This was a great experience to see bee flying just at the back yard. Like seriously, the first time I see so many bee living around my house for like 10 minutes. ;)

mmm, those yummy food and photos.

Japanese time. ;)

The 2^nd of December already, the day that I used to be excited about is coming nearer and nearer. Here I am saying I fell nothing for going back, I should say I’m terrified. Of these and that, people at there are having works, vacation and also hanging out. Anyway, it’s the beginning of December a month who the love ones birthday and Christmas is here. Let’s have a Christmas partay in Malaysia. I’m happy to see everyone but there is one thing I’m worry about them. Oh well, I worry too much I should enjoy this holiday even though things will happen. I’m sure we all will have a great time. ;)

Let’s talk about today, woke up in the morning was suppose to go jogging but ‘Complete Entertainment’ make me stay and watch it. It’s pretty good tho, somehow I bath then off to AA. Guess what? I, JessieTan is going to take Learner License soon. ;) I can’t wait to get my first car like now. Somehow, I need to go back and take courses then come back here and get the test. Well, after that went back home. Gonna have dinner with Anton, PeiFen, Carmen and Karen. Shally supposed to go but due to some physical problem she can’t. We had a great dinner in Ponsonby the dinner cost 216NZD for 5 people. LIKE OMG, here come the photos. ;)

Mayo Oyster; ikura Benton.

To be honest, it’s too yummy and we forgot to take photo.

We are just so good in eating.

Spider Roll. (soft shell crab)

This does look disgusting but it’s eggplant with mayo and cheese.

OMG, taste so nice. mmmmmm

Dragon Roll, as Karen said is Dragon ball.

The outer of it was fish skin, it taste so good.

Anton

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Here, come the dessert.

So yummy!!!

(left) Sesame Sundae; (right) GreenTea Sundae.

Banana split with fried banana.

Here come the happy ending, done by PeiFen. ;)

After that, we off to Shally’s and say hi. Although something happened to that big guy still we all wish we could help along. Then dropped by pf and Karen. Left me and Carmen, thanks anton for the ride. Chill man. ;) <3>

We had a great dinner.

Back home, online and I was wondering should I call Sze yet she called with Michelle. First thing in mind was, is this a wish come true or something? Then we chat, laugh and let’s see what FooXueSze taught me. ;)

TwinTower, PB and also smile with two fingers. ;)

Let’s see the cute dad of Sze. (herfamilyisallhalfnaked)

TwinTower

I love her, although we can say as not so close but I’m glad to have a friend like her and the others for so long. Let’s go back and have fun, daib.

Last Train to Paris

“Last Train To Paris” is releasing soon by the American rapper Diddy with Dawn Richard and Kalenna Harper. Diddy Dirty Money.

Lyrics of Coming Home.

I’m coming home

I’m coming home

Tell the World I’m coming home

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes

I’m coming home, I’m coming home

Tell the World that I’m coming

[Diddy]

Back where I belong, yeah I never felt so strong

(I’m back baby)

I feel like there’s nothing that I can’t try

And if you with me put your hands high

(put your hands high)

If you ever lost a light before, this ones for you

And you, the dreams are for you

I hear “The Tears of a Clown”

I hate that song

I feel like they talking to me when it comes on

Another day another Dawn

Another Keisha, nice to meet ya, get the math I’m gone

What am I ‘posed to do when the club lights come on

Its easy to be Puff, its harder to be Sean

What if the twins ask why I aint marry their mom (why, damn!)

How do I respond?

What if my son stares with a face like my own

And says he wants to be like me when he’s grown

Sh-t! But I aint finished growing

Another night the inevitible prolongs

Another day another Dawn

Just tell Taneka and Taresha I’ll be better in the morn’

Another lie that I carry on

I need to get back to the place I belong

[Dirty Money - Chorus]

I’m coming home

I’m coming home

Tell the World I’m coming home

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes

I’m coming home, I’m coming home

Tell the World that I’m coming

[Diddy - Verse 2]

“A house is Not a Home“, I hate this song

Is a house really a home when your loved ones are gone

And n-ggas got the nerve to blame you for it

And you know you woulda took the bullet if you saw it

But oyu felt it and still feel it

And money can’t make up for it or conceal it

But you deal with it and you keep ballin’

Pour out some liquor, play ball and we keep ballin’

Baby we’ve been living in sin ’cause we’ve been really in love

But we’ve been living as friends

So you’ve been a guest in your own home

It’s time to make your house your home

Pick up your phone, come on

[Dirty Money - Chorus]

I’m coming home

I’m coming home

Tell the World I’m coming home

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes

I’m coming home, I’m coming home

Tell the World that I’m coming

[Diddy - Verse 3]

“Ain’t No Stopping Us Now“, I love that song

Whenever it comes on it makes me feel strong

I thought I told y’all that we won’t stop

We back cruising through Harlem, Viso blocks

It’s what made me, saved me, drove me crazy

Drove me away than embraced me

Forgave me for all of my shortcomings

Welcome to my homecoming

Yeah it’s been a long time coming

Lot of fights, lot of scars, lot of bottles

Lot of cars, lot of ups, lot of downs

Made it back, lost my dog (I miss you BIG)

And here I stand, a better man! (a better man)

Thank you Lord (Thank you Lord)

[Dirty Money - Chorus]

I’m coming home

I’m coming home

Tell the World I’m coming home

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes

I’m coming home, I’m coming home

Tell the World that I’m coming

red hot lips.

The 20^th of November, Saturday.

Finished Biology test yesterday, it was alright easier than what I expected still I got some problem with microbes. Anyway, was Saturday. Stayed at home as usual to prepare exam but since Lisa is at shore and Karen wanna have dinner together. We went for a super duper hot place. It’s real hot tho. Si Cuan Restaurant, Newmarket. After you reading this post you will know how we actually eat this hot food at night. Like oh my god. It tasted not that hot at the first but when you continue with it. You cant actually feel what your lips belong to you and it turns red instead. Start our meal at 1940 untill 2130. Before you go there, you should bring a huge bottle of milk. OMG

Look at the lips and the colour of the soup.

Oily but yummy.

We forgot to take before but after.

Look at the hot lips we had. sexayyy

we're always the family.

5 days to NCEA level 1.

No matter what happened.

Here come the story on the 9^th, I called to the birthday girl and it’s a short call. Anyway, I wanna tell you guys about my present that I received from my sister. What can I say, she is the best sister ever just she has mood swing too often. Still she is an awesome sister, she gave me a lava lamp that I always wanted to have one. I heard that cost a lot but still I love it. It’s blue liquid with yellow wax and it turns green when the wax melt. OMG, this is just awesome. ;) Besides, I have more present to introduce when the time come. Pictures will be captured. Thanks people for throwing me an awesome party when I didn’t expect it could be that ‘big’.

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9^th of November. The wifey’s birthday.

Happy Belated sweet sixteen, thangyijing. Hope you really had a great one and sorry I cant actually celebrate with you or go through things with you but at least you got them. Who still care about you and love you as usual. So yea, I love you babe. ;) <3>

Best memories, we had was having tuition together. Created a family at there.

Tuition for 10 hours non-stop then heading to night market.

We cam whore a lot, nonstop and enjoy those moments.

Our memories will always stay, let’s face the fact.;)

The Green Hornet

Love Jay Chow/Chou周杰倫?

For no reason you gonna miss this movie.

The Green Hornet.

Release on the 14^th of January 2011.

Cast by,

Seth Rogen, Cameron Diaz and also Jay Chou.

It’s in 3D too.

Here are the two trailers of the movie.

Click play. ;)

Even you don’t like Jay. There is one reason to let you watch this is…

The way he speaks, anyhow watch Seth Rogen to be in the movie will be awesome so yea don’t miss it! You will never want to leave at the side of your friends’ topic for missing this movie

its not a premiere.

Hey people. I’m interested with anything, everything of you guys’ life. So yea, tell me more about how’s life going on there and here. I had my last paper on Friday the 26^th of November it was Chemistry. One funny thing with that paper was extension people thought it was hard but for a normal student like me thinks it was totally alright to get an achieve.

Anyway, it’s Sunday already. Uncle Tom came from Malaysia yesterday with his family. We threw a party for them, well it’s a small one of course but taking a seven years old kids and a six years old. It’s a hard work. Before that I woke up at about 8 thought of jogging but the dust just make me wanna vacuum instead of jog. So yea, I vacuum the whole house as usual then wait till they come back. I sweat for the first time when I was vacuuming. The weather was too good that can actually burn my skin. It’s hot and I just cant imagine how am I going to survive when I got back. They had fun so as I when we went to the park behind my house, met Nicole with her sister’s friends. Kiwis are always ‘LOUD’ , as they are all in intermediate. I suppose that can be forgive with those annoying voices that the whole neighborhood can hear. Got home, then people left one by one. They slept and we slept. Time just flew. Anyhow, they went to south island this morning, gonna be back on the 8^th.

However, I watched ’16 wishes’ just now.

It is a 2010 television film starring Debby Ryan and Jean-Luc Bilodeau.

Oh well, it is a Desney Original Movie, was pretty alright to watch. I like the present that Jay Kepler (Jean-Luc Bilodeau) gave Abigail Jensen (Debby Ryan). It is a necklace with a half of a heart saying “BFF”. Jay has other held which he uses a charm on his key ring. It looks so pretty and it says “happy sweet 16” at the back with “from Jay” that’s so sweet to have a best friend like him.

Debby Ryan

is an American tee actress. She is best known for casting as Bailey in ‘The Suite Life on Deck’. Oh, she’s only 17^. So young …

Jean-Luc Bilodeau

is a Canadian actor. He appeared in “Trick ‘r Treat” , I just realize he really did. I watched this movie and I nearly forgot that he did exist in this movie. Well, to be honest this ‘horror’ movie is not worth to watch for me it’s like pointless although HE’S HOT. ;)

Jean-Luc Bilodeau as Schrader in “Trick ‘r Treat”

Seriously, OMG!