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She is unique and she's in an unique family . Everything seems unfair and unique in her whole life . Different from others and the only one from others . It came close and went far away , after all she was the person they looked toward and tell them everything will be alright ; He tried to fill up the gaps that they left behind . However , she tried to appreciate it but too bad - time flies and it can't be rewind back to the time she wanted to be continue . She's trying to step one step at a time and being strong in everything she gonna face nowadays . She used to stop things for happen in a bad conditions but now she's trying to let things happen even it's in a bad or good conditions . She doesn't want to look forward or backwards , she just let the thing flows by itself and happen by itself .

She inbox - ed him and all she got was he's changed to a nicer person , caring and lovely but for her , she felt regret all what she had done to the old time .

Random stuff just typed with the feelings .

J is her new name .

sunshine plus sunset .

the fashion sense .

New member of the sweet family . End of July there's gonna be a new member in my family as my cousin bro said her name should be call as Summer Liew and I just wonder why ? Summer it's so normal but that's their daughter they should call what they like . =) My sis and I just wonder that she could name as Kimberly as shortform it's Kim . I love this name but too bad she's not belong to us so we cant really change her name as we want to . Last few week I forgot what day , ah lok chatted with me and he called me as J so as weiyen's blog also call me as J . I just love the name J , so if you guys wanna call me so just call me J , Jess or Jessie ! J is just so cool as lok wants us to call him as L but I prefer S but he said if I call him as S , S it's just sounds like ass . =)

um ... It's kinda dead nowadays . I'm stuck with my art external which full of colour stuff and drawings . I showed my wifey my colour drawing but she preferred my drawing with pencil seriously , my colouring it's really suck maybe I will show you guys next time when I'm done with my portfolio . Just received a newest news it's my dad is coming on the 24th or July until 5th of August and one great news it's on the 4th of August my beloved Khalil it's coming to NZ ! woohooo ... I'm looking forward to it and tomorrow I might call and book tickets for sis and I . James might be joining too but I think we will sit at the different prices seats .

Saturday , went to dress smart again 'cause my mum left her phone in the fitting room and until friday the worker just called and tell us this . It's kinda lucky after one week my mum's phone is back to her and she don't need lose her contact number in her phone . If it's in M'sia they won't be this kind of people . The very first time went to Dress Smart didn't even buy 1 thing . == Kinda stress plus tired about it , I hope I can buy clothes without looking at the price tag but I can't ! LACK OF MONEY at the moment . At night , went out to have dinner in Waiting Bar again . After dinner they came to our house and chit-chat as we know adults like to do so and the children were doing to same thing watch horror movie , we watched case39 . I watched it like the third or fourth times already but it's kinda good , i think .

Overall , things are alright just as normal which make me feel neutral enough to think positively .

we gonna put on diet together !

Come and Go

like no one cares .

I can effort this , I think ?

She told herself to be herself and the conclusion it's just that she can't . She bothers how people look at her and how people laugh at her . She tried her hardest just to ignore everything but she just can't do so ... According to the calender the time are flying but she just hope it can be faster 'cause she hope she could refresh the memories of her and them . She wanted to be the important one so she's trying her very best just to catch people's life there .

Day free after being retard in tuition center . I'm back from tuition and it's free for today .. I didn't bring my eng work 'cause today went to library to study . I didn't bring my art 'cause I'm lazy to carry the colours come and go . I didn't bring my geog's work 'cause I've done with my internal . I didn't bring my acc 'cause I've done dealing with it . I didn't bring my chem 'cause I'm done with it . I didn't bring my math 'cause I know all the algebras .

Today twitter's search topic is ' #OurFriendshipEndedWhen ' and I left one message which it's kinda stupid ? However , I saw one it's " #OurFriendshipEndedWhen you started acting like a totally different person to me in front of your new 'peeps' ." This sentence made me feel like totally right and another one which it's really true is "#OurFriendshipEndedWhen I notice you only contact me when you need something." Maybe these reason might end a friendship just like last time what we did but it's all the past we should look forward to the future which just not far away from now . =)

Until today I just realize the topic between me and the boys are all clothing , girls and braces . Everytime I met someone new the topic it's always start with clothing , I just wondered why ? Besides that , I think a girl wanna be girly it's not wearing skirt it's being like a girl so I don't think a girl like me needs to wear skirt or even dress ! I prefer jeans , shorts , polo tee , big-t and sneakers . What's the fashion now ? I'm kinda out now as my sis said so ... She told me the new style of this season and I was like is it ? I don't even know these . WTF !!! I gonna update myself with what ? When I have no idea what I should do next ! ==

p/s : no heels , please .

Days were bored bored bored !

a moment like this won't let you feel as sweet as candy .

She's away at previous days so as now .

Tuesday ; finished with the long weekend and I got my Science internal back . what a great news ? I worked so hard in it and all I get was a N (not achieve) I though I could even get a M (merit) but it's a good news to announce ? there's always a questions mark . Felt just as bitter as cud just hope I can put on a face which just like a devil's sick of sin . I wonder why i will type those words but I just felt so fed up ! I work so hard and the result i got was like this piece of shit . It's Chemistry this few weeks , I dont even know any symbol of the ions and metal ! It's killing me and now geog it's done but art assessment it's coming out I drew another today it's kinda lucky I didn't get late for the next period of it but it's just stress !

as you guys can see yesterday and the day before yesterday . The wifey and I were having fun on skype . I had a good feeling on that day ?

Photos is in her fb and this is on mine .

Kinda free to edit it like this . =)

I spent two days on skype with the wifey to have fun and camwhore ! It's pretty fun when we do so . I'm looking forward by who's the next one who would rather have fun with me ? Monday was Queen's Birthday so it's a public holiday spent to day at home with the people who also having mid - term holiday in Malaysia . I wonder how were they doing in the holidays ? Boys are as normal went to Jun's house and girls hanging out with some of the boys .

Saturday , 5th of June . Had a party at house which full of auties and the funny thing was we watch Paranormal Activity in a room with the lights off . All teenagers and something relly funny is the very first time i got scared and Carmen , William and I slept in a queen size bed ! haha . I just cant stop laughing at it ! ==

Sunday , 6th of June . Went to shopping at Dress Smart bough 2 shirts , 2 singlet and 1 pants . It's sales that's why we went to enjoy our shopping day ! at night webcammy with the wifey and end the day . I enjoyed buying things but not trying them on . I wore a super skinny jean which is really skinny for me i think ? haha and I don't even feel like taking them off after I had them on .

there's a blue-black in the middle of my hand .

dumb people do so .

you bring me down just like gravity .

I wrote tons of things but not posting in here . Something secret that I wish I could share but not everyone . I wonder why blogger don't allow the blogger have some private post which key in password just can view that post ? Like that just count as a blog i think ?

Something really strange just happened but I just couldn't tell ... However , I attended a really easy tuition class as my bro called it as a retarded tuition ? It's kinda bad when he said so . LOL !

End of story .

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